Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Seeking balance and a niche--out of the middle, behind the scenes or ?

Thinking on this for some weeks now. Seeking balance and grappling with a tension that continues to trouble me, I’ve not been blogging for a while. And so I’m looking to this writing as a way of sorting through and clarifying the possibilities— and finding where I might belong in all of this. I spent hours working on a post and deleted it.

I’ve been engaged in whispering questions to young people in the comments of their blogs and cheering in celebration with their successes and growth. Behind the scenes, out of the middle (long stories about this and that is what I deleted)– hopefully contributing to the learning and construction of meaning.

Blogging feels in the middle to me, particularly when my contributions seem to echo or celebrate what’s happening here, or here, or here (and reading these folks is far better). I’m not convinced that being up front, in the middle is where I can best contribute—

I’ve spent hours reflecting upon this tension; wondering if it’s the transparency of the blogging, the risk taking that troubles me. And concluding no— I'm just feeling right now the possibilities abound with my connecting with young people--

So there may not be many posts here; unless suddenly I find a passion-- I’ll be out behind the scenes and out of the middle in the comments encouraging conversation and the making of meaning, and celebrating the learning.